This year has been a major year for me, I have taken big steps. From moving out of a city i’m used to , leaving family and friends to a new place with no family and less than 3 friends.
January was hell of hectic.. I lost weight, fell out with my dad a lot because he wasn’t in support of my decision, and then I had to cater for myself without a job. I found out that life was becoming a bit unbearable as I started to lose so much weight, rarely came on social media and I was thinking a lot.
I took a bold step to change my life’s pattern so as to feel better.
These 10 things changed my life tremendously.
PRAYING : I have always prayed to God about everything right from when I was a kid, but it became more of a routine than a conscious effort and I found myself reciting prayers like a poem. I decided to start praying consciously about the things that I need, the things i’m thankful for and the things I needed God to know. I started reading devotionals and watching various sermons on YouTube, to help grow my spiritual life. Knowing that God answers prayers and that He listens to me made me feel a lot better about everything.
ACCEPTING : I am a fixer, I’ve never been of the school of thought that “something’s can’t be fixed”. It doesn’t matter what it is, I try to fix it. Trying to fix old things prevented me from getting new ones. From things, situations to people. When I started to accept that something’s are better left broken, some situations cannot be changed and some people cannot be fixed. My life took a positive new turn .
MOVING ON: This is almost the same as accepting, but this is another very important step. After accepting that I can’t fix a thing, instead of dweeling on it, I move on from it. I have also moved on from past occurrences that kept hunting me. I have moved on from people that I felt were no good for me, I have moved on from food and lifestyles that weren’t healthy for me. I decided to live a clean and peaceful life. It has changed my life drastically.
TALKING TO PEOPLE : i’m a big loner, i’m my best friend, i’m my confidant, i’m my everything. I always used to say that I don’t need people. But I decided to start talking to people about things ranging from things that excite me to things that hurt me. Talking to people helped me so much in solving most of my problems and sharing in my joy. I am where I am right now because of some people that I talked to. I have new friends now that have imparted my life positively because i decided to start talking to people. There’s a saying ” the more friends you have, the more good friends you’ll have”.
HEALING : I’ve been called “iron heart”,” stone heart” and a lot of other names which suggest i’m heartless. I had a box where I kept every feeling of hurt and pain so I don’t feel it but this year I decided to open it, feel everything and heal little by little. Not having some negative emotions hidden somewhere has helped me improve myself and my relationship with people. I’m free of prejudice , i hate everyone equally. Sorry, i mean Love. #punintended
EATING : I’ve always been an eater, food is one of the thing I don’t joke with. This year like other years I have been eating a lot and eating well. Food is a life changer.
DREAMING: I am a very content person, I don’t want too much, the little things I want are ok but this year I have been dreaming big about the things I would love to do, acquire and establish. Dreaming has made me very hardworking, focused and calculative. It has also made me very happy knowing that I will do everything I plan to.
LOVING: i’m a lover not a fighter. I have opened my heart to love in ways I have never done before. As much as it is risky, it is also very fulfilling knowing that you can love another person as much or even a little more than you love yourself.
SMILING/LAUGHING : In every situation, after giving thanks to God I smile. My student told me I look younger everyday. Smiling and laughing do this for me. I used to be infected with the bitch resting face syndrome ” but now i’m infected with the “ever smiling syndrome”.
LIVING: It is not new that we spend most of our time in life thinking about “what to do” “how to do it” “when to do it” and we don’t live in the present. I am living my life , chasing dragons in the sun and classrooms of course because my kids stress me the hell out. Living everyday and enjoying every moment . Appreciating people , food, conversations and greetings have changed my life.
Thank you for reading, I hope that you learnt a thing or two. Pls share with me the things which makes your life feel better as I am open to try new things.